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Hello everyone.
As some of you know, the past 6 months or so have been extremely tumultuous in my life. There have been great highs, there have been great lows, but I've held on through it all and things are finally starting to smooth out again. But along the way, I feel like I've lost my way; I've lost some of what me...well, me. True, I've found myself in a few other areas that have historically been lacking, but in the process I've lost my hold on other things.
The time has come for a change.
No more sitting and hoping that spark will magically appear out of thin air for me. It's somewhere in the depths of my mind and my soul, I can feel it there. But no more excuses. No more wishing I had more hours in the day, because honestly in the state I am now I'd probably while them away in front of the TV or something.
Today I begin to take back my life.
You'll see more out of me soon detailing my plans for the rest of the year and going forward. I'm not going to go easy, I'm not going to make myself crazy. But I will find out once and for all what I am capable of and then find ways to do more.
Now, this probably won't be completely pleasant, both to myself and to others. Some of you may not like the final result and I can understand that. But at the end of it all, there's one thing that I'm hoping you all will be able to join me in saying:
As some of you know, the past 6 months or so have been extremely tumultuous in my life. There have been great highs, there have been great lows, but I've held on through it all and things are finally starting to smooth out again. But along the way, I feel like I've lost my way; I've lost some of what me...well, me. True, I've found myself in a few other areas that have historically been lacking, but in the process I've lost my hold on other things.
The time has come for a change.
No more sitting and hoping that spark will magically appear out of thin air for me. It's somewhere in the depths of my mind and my soul, I can feel it there. But no more excuses. No more wishing I had more hours in the day, because honestly in the state I am now I'd probably while them away in front of the TV or something.
Today I begin to take back my life.
You'll see more out of me soon detailing my plans for the rest of the year and going forward. I'm not going to go easy, I'm not going to make myself crazy. But I will find out once and for all what I am capable of and then find ways to do more.
Now, this probably won't be completely pleasant, both to myself and to others. Some of you may not like the final result and I can understand that. But at the end of it all, there's one thing that I'm hoping you all will be able to join me in saying:
I'm done.
Once again,
The Claw is Faded
The Heart is Weak
And only the Scars remain.
Denied and Betrayed....again
I have no luck in love. None at all.
For the second time in as many relationships, I end up on the short end of the stick. Yes, this one went a lot further than the last, which means this one hurts more. Much much more.
I never thought anyone could hurt me as much as ....she.... hurt me, but I have been proven wrong.
I put so much energy into this relationship and into her that I had nothing left for anything else. Not my writing, not my games...nothing.
I'm not saying that will change immediately. But as the bonds are severed, maybe I will be able to find my way back to what once made me happy.
Maybe.
I guess to some people "Alway
This is my New Year's Resolution!
Maybe a month late, but who really cares? The point is that I'm refocusing myself on the things I want to do. To that end, I've made up a new goal list for the year 2018:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1pqpdYEycksuqnDyh8w6cFRl-q81cg26EUJq2kwmALeA/edit?usp=sharing
Now, some of these look familiar. I know, I've tried them before. But I'm not ready to give up on them. These were things that were important to me and I miss having the time and energy to do them. I need to set some time for myself, and this will help me. The gamelist and the ficlist is included under the grid.
Some of them have been updated. Last year I dropped from
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Thanks everyone.
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Well, here's hoping things change for the better. I recently started working again, and it is great to see progress being made in my own life.