Proforce

The breaking is complete. All I need to do now is wait For the dust to settle And see what remains When all that I hear Is the silence about me That will be the moment To take a sharp blade of Obsidian and Moonstone And cut away all the pieces Of my former life That are toxic to me That no longer serve me Or my best interests And use what is left And whatever comes next To create a new Robert That stands in the ashes of the old Redesign Rebuild Reclaim

It will happen Of that I am sure Whether it be the first time Or the hundredth I do not know But do not mistake It will happen Every chance it has The things I cannot accept Will eat at me Batter at my defenses Until the tipping point is reached The critical mass Where it becomes Unstoppable And when it does It will all turn inward The Final Countdown begun When the zero hour hits Then I And only I Will never have to worry About it ever happening Again

They never really go away No matter how faint they get Or how much you forget they exist They sit there Under the surface Waiting for their moment To make themselves known Once more Usually at the worst times The happiest times When things are going well And you are least prepared to handle Their return But yes They never really go away I know this for a fact For when your Heart is Scarred It always will be

A word thrown around so much That many do not think about What it truly means anymore A loose connection of people Bound by the same goal or Pursuing the same dream? Collaeagues and coworkers United by shared hardships Or working under a tyrannical boss? Perhaps But at the same time It yet means so much more In a brother you find Someone who you can share things with The highs and the lows In a brother you see Someone you admire and respect And in certain ways aspire to emulate In a brother you have gained A bond beyond mere friendship That will stand the test of time In a brother you know That things will not always be perfect But the

Everything changes That's the one truth of life Nothing is permanent Things come and go all the time Our wants and needs as they are now Are not the same that they used to be What was once a necessity Could now be a burden Or an obstacle To true happiness Do we have the perception To recognize when this happens? Are we aware enough of our true needs To know when something no longer is? Do we have the strength To put those things aside Instead of letting them drag us down? Then there are the times When you recognize yourself As the obstacle To another's happiness The question becomes Can you step aside? Or do you continue to hold on Selfis

One more thing I can handle that!   I can help you! One more thing Added to the list Added to the burdens One more thing Gleefully giving Keeping nothing One more thing The stack gets higher The weight gets heavier One more thing One more thing Always just one more.... Until you stumble Your grip shatters Dropping your load Upon the path before you One more thing Was one thing too many And in the rubble All you can do Is pick up the pieces Of the things that truly matter

How could I have what was never truly mine? People said I had it always with me Yet I could not hold it in my hands whenever I needed it People say it belonged to me and me alone Yet time and again I was forced to watch it within the grasp of another And I still believed Throughout it all Promises made and promises broken That one day it would be truly mine And then the need to have one of my own The desire to truly have one that belonged to me Grew so great that my mind would wander Seeing others that might perhaps come to me But never for very long Or ever for very seriously For I still loved that which was supposed to be min

You claim to be disappointed in me Yet why should I care? You are not honest with me I've caught you in a lie How can you be behind Because of my inactions When we both know that The information you gained For me to work with is not Supposed to be yours For another three months? You know this! It has been told to you Many times By many people And yet you persist and nag Throwing your weight around Until you get your way Disappointed in me you say What a joke I have done nothing for you to be Disappointed in I, on the other hand Am very disappointed In you